adherencetofacts | IC Inbox [Folkmore]

That's a vision statement, not a plan. I'm not asking you to change anything about him. I want you to be okay. You're not, and that's understandable. It won't be easy or fast or anything like that, but work on climbing out of that pit. I'm here to help.

[ Honesty hour with Nanami Kento. There's reasons talking with him is uncomfortable for Gojo. ]

And if I can't? If I just end up digging myself deeper in?

Then you get help. I help you stop digging. Me or someone else. There's many people here. Others might not be from home, but you can find good friends here. Friends who can help.

[ Says the man who hasn't done that yet. He's been busy. Teenage drama and Haibara keep him busy. ]

I don't think there's much help for this, Nanami.

That attitude doesn't help. You have to be open to accepting it. And open to the idea of getting better. [ Nanami looks at Geto, pondering how far to push, how far is too far.

More gently, he says ] Your whole well being shouldn't depend on one person. Mine shouldn't either.

Not really something you can just turn off. [But he's been keeping it in check, or trying to.]

No. You can invest your well being in other things. Other people. Other activities. It's why I have hobbies. Despite losing Haibara, [ Nanami has to pause after saying that. It still hurts, and having Haibara here makes it harder in some ways to speak of ] I worked hard to find little happinesses. Even if they were small. A good meal. A good book. Time not spent working.

It can help.

It's not that simple. I don't even know where to start if I'm being honest and I don't even like letting him out of my sight most of the time. [But he's trying, he is. ]

I know you're probably right, though.

I'm glad you are letting him out of your sight. You can use the time he's gone to do other things. Meet other people, pick up some hobbies... Finding other things you like. It could be as simple as practicing martial arts without cursed energy at Agrona or trying something you've never done.

[ Nanami sighs. ] I spent a lot of time alone after I left. It forced me to do those things. Though I generally chose hobbies, not people.

Folkmore's very focused on people.

And I don't really like people. [Which is a downside of being here. It doesn't mean it won't interact at all but he's not much for imitating. ]

I doubt you're the only one here who doesn't. Find someone else who doesn't like people. Find someone besides me you can tolerate.

Not everyone's going to force themselves into your life like a young teenage girl. [ That makes him smile, almost. ] Is she still in your life?

I don't want anyone else. [He doesn't want to do anything or see anyone, really. Alluka is a different matter, although letting her beyond the surface hasn't happened either.

He's on his feet a moment later, although he doesn't go for the door, not yet.]

I don't want anyone else in my life.

[ Nanami stays seated for the moment, watching Geto carefully. It feels as though he's stepped on a landmine but it hasn't gone off yet. ]

You're good with Gojo, Haibara, and I. And possibly the girl. Yes?

[ He's calm, steady, unflappable in that moment. ]

"Isn't that enough?" It's harsher than he probably means it to be, but it's not a subject he even wants to discuss, much less dig into.

"It can be, depending on the circumstances," Nanami says. He isn't rejecting it out of hand. Nor is he accepting it as the be all end all of Geto's existence. In all likelihood, it would do Geto some good to get to know more people, but he may need more time yet.

"It has to be. I don't want to involve anyone else in my life."

"All right," Nanami says. He's calm as ever and accepts it. "We can have that here."

Gojo will still get to know a hundred people or more, but so long as Geto accepts that, he can make this work. In time, he can branch out.

"You need to stop being so damn calm all the time." Because it's honestly not calming him down at all. Valid points or not, it feels like Nanami's just humoring him or patronizing him and he's not really a fan of the feeling.

"I need to go. We can do this later." Or never again.

"It's my natural instinct when situations aren't calm," Nanami says. "You see more out of me when it is calm." He shrugs. It's always been his instinct. No need to contribute to an exploding situation, not unless it's so fucking dire he has to.

"I'd appreciate later," Nanami says. As in, sometime. Not never again. God knows Geto needs it. Though trying to control some moderate level of emoting is... not Nanami's strong suit.

"I liked you better when you had less self control." Not actually but at least it was less frustrating when he feels like he's losing his grip on things, even if he's not.

"...Yeah, sometime."

"Unfortunately you'll have to deal with the me you have." Nanami shrugs and stands, setting the mugs on the pass through to the kitchen.

"Let me cook for you sometime. I'm a much better chef." He leads the way to the door since Geto needs some alone time.

"...Maybe I can help you cook, just tell me when." It might be easier to talk if he's actually doing something as well.

"Sure. Lets pick a day and do it every week or two." That sounds nice. It'll also give them a regular time to touch base and check in. At the end there's tasty food. "It can be part of reestablishing a schedule for me. That'll help me out."

"I can do that." He answers after a moment. "And I can bring whatever you need if you're short on something." Nanami probably has a wider range of dishes he can cook too so that's something Geto can learn.

"I appreciate that. I try to get fresh ingredients when possible," Nanami says. "I'll get my shopping back on a schedule... soon."

He walks with Geto toward the door. "I really look forward to that."

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