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[adherencetofacts]

[ That gets a small sigh but fond. Haibara is no Gojo. Nanami doubts he could handle sharing a living space with Gojo, much less the higher level of chaos he must bring to Geto's life. Yet Haibara is his own sort of chaotic. Always has been, in a kind generous way. ]

I am not sure what that says about us, but Haibara is Haibara. I wouldn't choose anyone over him.

[a_darker_path]

I think it says more about me than you. I'm the one who fell for a cyclone in human form. [It's dry but no less true, Geto letting his head fall back against the couch.]

You two are good together though. Haibara's always been a good influence on you.

[adherencetofacts]

[ Nanami smiles slightly, amused. Geto's right, however, in his description of Gojo. He's on a whole different level when it comes to chaos. ]

I'd enjoy hearing it in your own words. Why you love Gojo.

[ That relationship, even when they're apart, shapes so much in the course of the world. It makes something private also something public. ]

Haibara's a good influence on everyone.

[a_darker_path]

That's a question I'm not sure how to answer because it's not like I planned it. [Definitely not. And until he'd thought Satoru had died, he'd never quite realized exactly where he stood. But the idea of losing him had changed everything.]

He's a force of nature and things are simpler here. [To fall into regular routines, although he's still finding his own place.] But he still needs something to keep him busy most of the time.

[adherencetofacts]

People don't plan to fall in love, but it's good to understand what you love about someone.

[ Every year of students are close, and Nanami has no rock to throw at Geto. He fell for his classmate too. Fell hard and didn't see it coming until it happened. He's had years to reflect on it, something Geto hasn't. Nanami also doubts Gojo and Geto spent much time reflecting on it after... well, after. ]

He doesn't know how to be still. Almost ever. Sleep is a rare exception. Fortunately, there's many people to socialize with here.

[a_darker_path]

I know. [He knows it too well, especially the sleep thing.] And he's always going after new people, trying to do everything when he doesn't need to.

[adherencetofacts]

He's used to having to do everything. He's had those expectations placed on his shoulders, and it's hard to let go of them. [ Nanami sips his latte and sighs, thinking of Gojo over the years, the ones this Gojo hasn't lived yet. ]

Slowing down, not doing everything himself... it'll take him some time to learn how to do that.

[a_darker_path]

I know. [And he does get it, even if he's trying to work his way around the situation.]

[adherencetofacts]

[ Nanami looks at Geto. ] That has to be hard on you.

[a_darker_path]

Can't change who he is. [Even if he's not a fan of the social side of things.]

I'm managing.

[adherencetofacts]

No, trying to change people is an exercise in futility.

What are you doing to manage? [ Nanami gives Geto an intense serious look. One that says he's not letting Geto slide by on this matter. It's for Geto's sake. ]

[a_darker_path]

Ignoring it. I can't do anything else about it so it seems best to just ignore it as much as possible and focus on what really matters.

[adherencetofacts]

Ignoring and distracting yourself work for a while. In the end, you need to process it. Otherwise, it will become a problem. [ Nanami raises an eyebrow. Trust him on this, Geto. ]

[a_darker_path]

I'll figure something out but he is who he is.

[adherencetofacts]

That's a vision statement, not a plan. I'm not asking you to change anything about him. I want you to be okay. You're not, and that's understandable. It won't be easy or fast or anything like that, but work on climbing out of that pit. I'm here to help.

[ Honesty hour with Nanami Kento. There's reasons talking with him is uncomfortable for Gojo. ]

[a_darker_path]

And if I can't? If I just end up digging myself deeper in?

[adherencetofacts]

Then you get help. I help you stop digging. Me or someone else. There's many people here. Others might not be from home, but you can find good friends here. Friends who can help.

[ Says the man who hasn't done that yet. He's been busy. Teenage drama and Haibara keep him busy. ]

[a_darker_path]

I don't think there's much help for this, Nanami.

[adherencetofacts]

That attitude doesn't help. You have to be open to accepting it. And open to the idea of getting better. [ Nanami looks at Geto, pondering how far to push, how far is too far.

More gently, he says ] Your whole well being shouldn't depend on one person. Mine shouldn't either.

[a_darker_path]

Not really something you can just turn off. [But he's been keeping it in check, or trying to.]

[adherencetofacts]

No. You can invest your well being in other things. Other people. Other activities. It's why I have hobbies. Despite losing Haibara, [ Nanami has to pause after saying that. It still hurts, and having Haibara here makes it harder in some ways to speak of ] I worked hard to find little happinesses. Even if they were small. A good meal. A good book. Time not spent working.

It can help.

[a_darker_path]

It's not that simple. I don't even know where to start if I'm being honest and I don't even like letting him out of my sight most of the time. [But he's trying, he is. ]

I know you're probably right, though.

[adherencetofacts]

I'm glad you are letting him out of your sight. You can use the time he's gone to do other things. Meet other people, pick up some hobbies... Finding other things you like. It could be as simple as practicing martial arts without cursed energy at Agrona or trying something you've never done.

[ Nanami sighs. ] I spent a lot of time alone after I left. It forced me to do those things. Though I generally chose hobbies, not people.

Folkmore's very focused on people.

[a_darker_path]

And I don't really like people. [Which is a downside of being here. It doesn't mean it won't interact at all but he's not much for imitating. ]

[adherencetofacts]

I doubt you're the only one here who doesn't. Find someone else who doesn't like people. Find someone besides me you can tolerate.

Not everyone's going to force themselves into your life like a young teenage girl. [ That makes him smile, almost. ] Is she still in your life?